Sunday, February 19, 2012 : 7:30 PM
Stressing over my plans after im officially graduated from school .
I told my parents bout my plan that i would like to work for a year first , so that i can feel a sense of responsibility in every areas . Like , stop being late & be punctual .
Yes , this is the utmost reason of all . Cos , im forever late for school .
Up to this stage of my life , i always tend to shrug responsibility off my shoulder & take things a little too lightly .
& also to take this opportunity to taste how scornful and realistic this world has become .
Yes , people around me usually proclaim about this " two sided faces creature " they encountered in working environment . I've heard all types of stories about them , but never to experience this myself .
I am already mentally prepared to meet such faggots ...
Afterall , its my decision . I have to accept everything i will be facing because ... i deserve it .
I need to step out of my comfort zone someday , its just that im stepping out earlier than expected .
But , my parents doesnt seems to understand and insist me to further my studies straight after i graduate -.-
I mean , i dont even know if i can enter Polytechnic successfully due to my current sucky gpa of 2.1 =="
I dont even have the confidence , so what makes them assume that i can !?
So many assume ,
So little know .
So little know .
Yes . I know studies is important .
But i have never once mentioned to stop pursuing my studies .
I just offer them another alternative that i would like to work for a year first , then return back to school . Be it Poly or Private .
Since i have no course in mind currently , why not give me some time to figure out what i wana do in future ?
But it appears like as though i am requesting too much from them -____-"
They are always pushing their perspective to my perspective and then , forced me to agree with them .
Enough of all these , really .
I aint a puppet that are manipulate by them .
I dont even have the freedom of speech . How pathetic -.-
Enough of my frustration .
No doubts that we patched things up .
I gave him another chance because , the love is still there .
I still do love him just as much , no matter how many times he have caused my heart to be shattered into pieces .
He is over at Cambodia now , till 7th March .
That missing of someone , kills .
I miss you , PussyQuek )':
I just need you now ..
Wednesday, February 15, 2012 : 11:30 PM
If I were granted three wishes, they would be
You,
Me,
Us .
You,
Me,
Us .
14 / 02
Valentine's Day ....
Guns N Roses 's Day .
( If you know what i meant :P )
( If you know what i meant :P )
Well , here it goes !
My plan was to turn in at 10pm , and wake at 4am .
Crazy much , i know /:
BUT , my plan went haywire .
Not because i couldnt wake .. but ... i didnt catch a wink at all !
So was planning with my sist what should i do after i told her my plan .
As i have never sneak out from home during wee hours before /:
I called him , and he told me to come over now since i cant sleep and he isnt asleep yet .
So after much consideration , i decided to .....
Yes , sneak out from home .. with my sist's help :D
Thanks ! ♥
Thanks ! ♥
Went to bath , while Sist went to prepare supper since the both of us were pretty hungry .
Went to prepare my necessary clothing & cosmetics afterwhich .
Yes , naked face to his house . But this isnt the first time anyway , so its okay .
He has seen my naked face , even with my hair all tied up .
LOL , idk . But his place seems like my 2nd home to me .
He even informed me to bring some of my clothes to his home so that i can change to a new set in future O:
Ogayyyyyyyyyy cannnnn .
When you return back to SG okay ? (;
Had my supper , and managed to sneak out from home cautiously .
Like a fun only , hahahahaha !
Cabbed down to his place then .
& told him i was hungry still ...
He called and told him i will be reaching in another 10-15 min's time ... and he went to cook after that . So that i can have them the moment i reached :D
" GOOD MORNING ! "
( Was 330am when i reached btw )
( Was 330am when i reached btw )
He served the bowl of maggie then (:
Though its just a bowl of maggie , but im already contented just like this as it was cooked by him personally :D
Fell asleep while watching tv eventually .
I wonder ... why am i able to fall asleep that easy over at his place when im always having a hard time falling asleep over at my home ? =="
He cant seems to fall asleep , so i stayed up and had a heart to heart talk with him .
Heard something irrelevant from him about this person and got annoyed .
Nice story , babe . Why not fabricate another story but this time round , make it a little more convincing ? But , nice try :D
Stop wasting your effort , like seriously .
I am starting to feel disgusted over your actions . No , all the time .
Its plainly horrible + irritating , for fuck sake -___-"
Then , his mama woke up for work at 6am .
& she was surprised to see me over here . HAHA .
Both of us fell asleep in the end .
Received a call from my friend early in the morning around 10am -.-
Went back to sleep , and received another call again at 12+pm -.-
Was pissed , and decided to wake .
Went to bathe , and get prepared .
Its not an easy take to wake him up , my god .
He kept snoozing off . Gahhhh .
He woke up at 3pm finally . * wipe sweat *
Left his place , and cabbed down to his grandma's place :D
I can vouch that its rare to see the gentle & caring side of him .
Yes , i enjoy seeing him like this ... because i know that he isnt like what others mentioned about him .
& definitely , not everyone has seen this image of him before :D
Off to Orchard , and went to meet his mama for dinner after purchasing what he is requested to buy .
Tonkichi for dinner !
Fell asleep while watching tv eventually .
I wonder ... why am i able to fall asleep that easy over at his place when im always having a hard time falling asleep over at my home ? =="
He cant seems to fall asleep , so i stayed up and had a heart to heart talk with him .
Heard something irrelevant from him about this person and got annoyed .
Nice story , babe . Why not fabricate another story but this time round , make it a little more convincing ? But , nice try :D
Stop wasting your effort , like seriously .
I am starting to feel disgusted over your actions . No , all the time .
Its plainly horrible + irritating , for fuck sake -___-"
Then , his mama woke up for work at 6am .
& she was surprised to see me over here . HAHA .
Both of us fell asleep in the end .
Received a call from my friend early in the morning around 10am -.-
Went back to sleep , and received another call again at 12+pm -.-
Was pissed , and decided to wake .
Went to bathe , and get prepared .
Its not an easy take to wake him up , my god .
He kept snoozing off . Gahhhh .
He woke up at 3pm finally . * wipe sweat *
Left his place , and cabbed down to his grandma's place :D
I can vouch that its rare to see the gentle & caring side of him .
Yes , i enjoy seeing him like this ... because i know that he isnt like what others mentioned about him .
& definitely , not everyone has seen this image of him before :D
Off to Orchard , and went to meet his mama for dinner after purchasing what he is requested to buy .
Tonkichi for dinner !
Service were pretty bad that day . Booooooohoooooo ~
After we had our meal , left for his place again as i left my things over at his house .
Feeling emotional , and my tears were to flow once more .
Yes , emotional about his leaving the next day )':
Damn those tears =="
Left his place at 1130pm , and brought both Stitch & Melody with me .
His mama saw , and asked :
We turned to each other immediately and gawked @ the word " animals " .
The moment i was inside the cab , the sourness in me literally gush up through my throat leaving me hard to swallow it down . Then few seconds later , all i found was myself sobbing so badly .. as i could really feel the ache inside my heart .
Just parted , yet im missing him so damn frigging much )':
Sigh .
Turned in at 1am , and set alarm at 6am .
Snoozed all the way till 720am , and dragged myself up from bed .
Reached airport at 9am , and saw him together with his mama .
Went to have our breakfast , and sent him off then .
Thats when my emotion starts to arise . Forcing myself to not tear , and yes .. i made it .
I swear , i really hates being apart with him . Because all the memories we had were still fresh in my mind . Seems like its just yesterday's thing . And sending him off seems like it just happened a minute ago .
Yes indeed . I miss the time we have spent together ,
the time when i have to pull him up from bed ,
the time when we were walking side by side .. locking our fingers together and
especially when we were hugging each other real tightly .
Yes , if i have a choice .. i wouldnt wants us to be miles apart .
Cos its absolutely unbearable )':
Yes , i wish ......
After we had our meal , left for his place again as i left my things over at his house .
Feeling emotional , and my tears were to flow once more .
Yes , emotional about his leaving the next day )':
Damn those tears =="
Left his place at 1130pm , and brought both Stitch & Melody with me .
His mama saw , and asked :
" Eh , how come you bring those two animals back home ? " .
We turned to each other immediately and gawked @ the word " animals " .
The moment i was inside the cab , the sourness in me literally gush up through my throat leaving me hard to swallow it down . Then few seconds later , all i found was myself sobbing so badly .. as i could really feel the ache inside my heart .
Just parted , yet im missing him so damn frigging much )':
Sigh .
Turned in at 1am , and set alarm at 6am .
Snoozed all the way till 720am , and dragged myself up from bed .
Reached airport at 9am , and saw him together with his mama .
Went to have our breakfast , and sent him off then .
Thats when my emotion starts to arise . Forcing myself to not tear , and yes .. i made it .
I swear , i really hates being apart with him . Because all the memories we had were still fresh in my mind . Seems like its just yesterday's thing . And sending him off seems like it just happened a minute ago .
Yes indeed . I miss the time we have spent together ,
the time when i have to pull him up from bed ,
the time when we were walking side by side .. locking our fingers together and
especially when we were hugging each other real tightly .
Yes , if i have a choice .. i wouldnt wants us to be miles apart .
Cos its absolutely unbearable )':
Yes , i wish ......
I wish he will appear right infront of me now .
I remember the other time I stepped into the airport , my mood was brimmed with excitement and a wide smile lingers all the way .
But this time round , a different case . I was so reluctant to step into the airport , but i know i have to ):
After sending him off , went back home together with his mama to have a short nap .
I sees his image behind my eyelid whenever i shut them .
Exchanged number with his mama , and i saved her name under " Mommy Quek " .
& she saved my name under " Carter Jocelyn " . HAHAH ! My new name ! :D
Bid goodbye to his mama , and left for Scape .
The minute i had my attendance marked , left for home afterwards . LOL
Things that happened during this 1month brought us closer than before ,
and im glad .. we are still together ♥
PussyQuek , i miss you )':
Hopefully , i pray for that 3 weeks to fly fast .
& also pray that history wont repeat again .
I Love You , and you know i will always do
♥♥♥